Where am I heading to?

Monday, 27 July 2009

Looking around me...right and left....up and down....front and back....erm... -_-'''

Everyone have their own life. They have a successful career and some even got their master done. After few years of study its seams nothing much I've got so far. Even if I went to Korea before, I'm back to the reality where life was normal as usual. I have my own career which I have to stay far from my hometown. Life with no experience, no fun, no knowledge. Every night, i just wonder when i can actually got myself back to KL, the place where I always dream to be. When can I actually had my own freedom, where i can have more friend to hang around. Where to find lots and lots of $$$ for myself and my family.

I'm confuse, really confuse...

Where should i be...more alternative more confusing...and the more headache i got....

I just don't know if i should:-

1. Do my master (for either part time or full time);
2. Try to apply for scholarship for master (study oversea);
3. Apply for Tutor in UTM (either KL campus or Skudai campus);
4. Stick to my current career;
5. Transfer back to KL after my RTD project here;
6. or Erm...Get married to a rich guy....(wakaka..that's impossible right)
   

Any suggestion? NO idea?...plz help....

WHERE SHOULD I ACTUALLY GO?

no one will understand my feeling right now!!!

Thursday, 13 November 2008

do you noe wat its feel like 2 do your thesis and your studio in the same time.....

previously i really don noe wat its feel like....i'll always say "no BIG deal wil it"

jst report writing and also some layout 2do.....

but now.......

i noe wat it feels......

i feel STRESSED....

i feel wanna CRY.....

i feel like GIVING UP.....

n i feel like THROWING MY LAPTOP AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (of coz i won do tat....if i do tat i'm finish...i need 2 retake my semester again)

i sit in front of d laptop d whole day but seams no progress at all....

i miss d time i was free....d time i'm in korea....when i can go here n there freely....visit places that i've never been b4.....exploring thgs tat i've never done b4......i really "MISS MY PAST"....

plz bring me bck....bring me 2 my past.....where i no longer need 2 do all my thesis n studio....plz plz plz.....

i really tired yet i can't sleep

Sunday, 2 November 2008

i jst don noe y i jst can't sleep even i'm that tired....mayb because i'm STRESSED? stressed wit all my EXAMS + REPORT + THESIS + LAYOUT....

how am i going to finish it all? huhuhu~~~

really feel wanna cry out...but i noe that i hav to be strong...only a months left n I'll b free...free from all the studies....i jst need to finish evrythg these few days n evrythg will b settled....

hope time flies fast...i jst wanna take a rest...i'm really tired of all these things...

now i wan myself to be recovered from all d illness (flu, fever, cought, headache, n etc)....i need more energy to continue....plz recharge my batteries....i still need to study for my exam....especially law...many thgs need to memorise....many thgs need to read....i hope i can cope wit it...

wish me luck.....

i wanna sleep i wanna sleep....but i can't...mayb i jst need to read my law awhile b4 i sleep.....

I NEED SOME REST!!!!!!!

i'm sick, yet i still need to finish up my studio and my thesis...

Tuesday, 21 October 2008

last nite it was my worst day ever in this semester....knowing that i still hav loads of assignment, reports, studio and also thesis to do...i really can't stand my life now....

life really sucks now....i wen bck 2 my room after my studio around 4...hoping to go to the UTM clinic but it was closed!!! DAMN! its only 4pm...how come it close that early?

after that i hav to wen straight bck to my room to get a rest....it was around 7...i feel so cold...i try to get up 2 off d fan and then trying to sleep bck but i noe that i still hav a lot 2 do which i need to pass half of it to my thesis supervisor 2molo...i woke up but after 2 hours i can't even stand it n sleep around 9 until tis morning....

it was tough for me...really tough....feeling dizzy...waking up midnight a few times....at 12am, 1am, 3am, 5am....n at last around 7am...

and now....

i still need to do my thgs...finish it up....

hoping next week i can watch drama, play games, and also wen shopping....

really hope you were there for me...

difference

Tuesday, 22 July 2008

i saw some difference between people from my batch and also my junior's batch (which i'm attending my class with)....they were so much different....

1. we use to do our thing in the room but the juniors do it in the studio
2. we use to eat separately but they like to eat together as a group
3. we take things seriously but they don...they make thgs better for themselves...
4. we rush our assignment all the time but they don't

i really need to study from them....a lot that i actually need to learn from them...separate thgs evenly...work and also life....they enjoy but in d other way completing their thgs...

i smthg i wouldn't understand...it seams tat i'm not satisfied wit their work....i mean my studio's groupmate's work.....they seams to do thgs on their own and simply out of the requirement of the lecturer...

thgs tat i do 2day

Tuesday, 8 July 2008

2day i really did a lot of thgs such as:-

1. 10.15am - find En. Rahim (my studio lecturer to get permission for my leave on this coming friday)
2. 11.00am - attend English for Career Search class for 2 hours
   
3. 1.00pm - find Dr. Foziah but she is not in her room
4. 1.15pm - rush to computer lab to type a letter for En. Rahim
5. 1.35pm - went to print my letter at meranti
6. 1.55pm - find rahim to sign my approval letter
7. 2.15pm - rush to Kolej 12's office to ask if there is any single room available
8. 2.45pm - rush to meranti to buy a bread (that my only lunch...i've no time to eat T_T)
9. 3.00pm - rush to Dewan Senat to attend a seminar on "Integrated River Basin Management: How to make it work?" by Prof. Helmut (been called by Dr.Rafee to attend the seminar so that i can get some information for my thesis)
   
10. 4.55pm - the seminar end....tot i can get information form the talk but its useless coz its all engineering and its nothg related to my thesis...T_T
11. 5.00pm - tot of going to Kolej 12 again to ask for the single room but d office already close
12. 5.05pm - wen to fetch one of my junior (Rose) coz i adi promise her to help her to move her com from Tmn University
13. 5.45pm - reach room....take a good rest and play games
14. 6.45pm - too hungry, so i wen downstairs to get a milo drink from the fridge and then eat a piece of bread (don't worry tats not my dinner)
15. 7.30pm - wen out for dinner....
16. 8.00pm - accompany my dear to cut his hair
17. 8.20pm - reach room again....n try to blog.....

tats wat i did d whole day....now kinda tiring but i noe i still hav to do my studio n also my thesis....i think i might take a rest b4 i bath n do my thgs....nite...

HELP!

my 1st day of studio!

Monday, 7 July 2008

amazingly it was much more difference from the previous studio that i've attended....everythg seams so new now...friends were new...even d lecturers 2...i'm lucky 2 supervise under En.Rahim...hope he'll help me in my studio...

2day, during my 1st day of studio, it actually taught me some lessons.....

i notice that i need to brush up some of my skills....haha wat skills? my understanding skills la...i'm proud 2 b a senior in the group....i'll try my best to speak more....to keep up wit the rest and also to improve myself in managing my time.....

don noe y suddenly i feel i'm running out of time....it makes me so stress...thinking of my thesis and also my studio, makes me feel that i really need to catch up really quick....

time isn't always waiting for me....

friends doesn't always stay beside me....

after tis sem all will go smoothly (i hope so)....

okla...chao....i wanna think what should i do now....

"life is boring, thats why i need to improve it"

my semester break end soon...very soon (여름 방학에 끈아다)

Sunday, 6 July 2008

source: www.burneycalifornia.com/.../school-cartoon.jpg

soon! very very soon....in 8 hours time, my semester break will end jst like tat...can't really believe it...time passes tat fast....its d time 4 me 2 start d war again...

luckily i had a great time in this 1 week here b4 d sem start...my friends here giv me courage to continue d journey...thanks

source: www.cartoonstock.com/lowres/cpa0111l.jpg

burning mid nite oil...

Sunday, 27 April 2008

burn burn away my oil.... -_-'''

hahaha....

reading...
memorising...
chatting...
playing games...

haih....tired...monday come quick....i wanna take d last paper....n i'll b free for tis sem

survival n life

Wednesday, 2 April 2008

i don noe wat i should say about my life now....living here wit all the friends makes me feel being neglected...every1 bz with their thesis and also assignment...how bout me?

hehe sitting in front of d laptop doing nothg beside games....i've plenty of assignment to finish up but don noe y....i don feel like doing it now....

the weather changes everyday.....damn hot in d afternoon n cold at nite...it changes like how my mood change....sooner or later i'll b alone here in my uni....seeing then graduating and also having their own life makes me feel the urge 2 grad wit them....

how bout the juniors? i don feel like mentioning bout them....ignoring was their expert in the course...seeing me extending my semester....ignoring me...giving me no chance to be good with them....

how can i survive wit them the next sem?

i'm bck 2 my uni....

Sunday, 6 January 2008

i can't believe i'm bck in my uni d....evrythg seams so new now....i really miss d time tat i'm here wit all d friends...doing evrythg 2gether....i think i hav 2 catch up wit them again....haha....

1 thg tat i need 2 get use was d internet connection here...keke.....damn slow le....even stremyx...hoho....how can i survive like tat.....i cannot blog watch video n drama on9...cham o.....how a?

how can i concentrate?

Sunday, 16 December 2007

11 more days i will leave Korea.....tell me...tell me.....how can i still concentrate on my studies?...really don feel like ready anythg for my exam.....haih....wat should i do now....? feel so lazy now....fast fast.....pass tis few days....n i can go bck 2 my lovely home d.....muahaha.....oops i need 2 study d....haih...update u later k...

my laziness

Saturday, 24 November 2007

feel so lazy these days...really don feel like doing my assignment...summore we need 2 find our own tittle....actually i prefer lec giv us d tittle...so tat i won suffer tat much..kaka...haih...

assignment!!!!

ARGH!!!

my korean autumn class

Monday, 5 November 2007

surprisingly we have outdoor class tat day for our korean language class.....here r some of d beautiful pic....nice autumn in my uni....i love it so much....muaks...

horeb, lecturer, zaza, me, nary, ngan, n joe
its me wit d beautiful leaves...
me n nary...pretty gal..keke...
my whole classmates...oops...where is horeb....ohyea....he took tis pic...
wow...nice...
my group wit sonseng nim(lecturer)...
preparing for d conversation test...
wish me luck....i need 2 start d conversation d....
nice...

stress

Tuesday, 18 September 2007

argh.....help me....so many thgs 2 do le....

1. report writing
2. summary writing
3. summary for presentation
4. reading
5. understand n memorizing
6. food festival....

haih...help me....!!!!!
i wanna rest a while can ma???????
help....................

so many thgs 2do le.....

Wednesday, 13 June 2007

cham o....so many thgs need 2do now......2 of my assignment need 2 finish up by next week n then still need 2 study for my exam on friday monday n wednesday....

die die die d.....

so stress o.....

can any1 out there help me wit tis.....suddenly stuff wit so many thgs....haih....

Stupid KONICOF...

Wednesday, 30 May 2007

u noe wat....2molo i got a big pesentation.....n my whole sem grades depends on that......4 in a group 2 present it.....n we need 2 get our topic from d KONICOF institute......but so sadly when its my turn.....they giv us only 2 days 2 prepare 4 in...but d rest of d group take nearly a week 2 do it.....

2molo i need 2 present n until now i haven even started anythg yet.....stupid KONICOF.....he tot tat we only hav that presentation thgs 2do......

CRAZY!!!

boring...

Thursday, 19 April 2007

oh its been a while tat i din write my blog....hehe...bz bz bz wit my stuff here...muahaha.....its really boring these few days.....report n d korean thg....haih....2molo got speaking test n i'm still blur wit those words le...cham o....

boring right lets c my crazy roommate....muahaha....she is cute n crazy o...hehe...

sakura....

Thursday, 12 April 2007

hehe....jst now after my korean government and policy class, the lecturer actually treat us eat at d restaurant.....so good le....muahaha....nice chicken chop....now very full full d....

ohyea i wanna say congratulation 2 kenneth, freda, elliot n tania.....wow they did a great job during d presentation jst now....now i'm so worry....how am i gonna present like them.....they r extremely good n perfect.....haih....mayb i should find some ways 2 brush up my presentation skill le.....

after d lunch we wen 2 take some photos....haha....so nice le....d sakura flower is so nice.....d petal is falling n flying here n there....wow...nice n beautiful o.....hmmm....but i don hav d pic now wit me.....mayb i get it from my friends then i show it 2 u k.....hehe......

okla...gotta go class now...tata...

far far far....

Wednesday, 21 March 2007

hmm......now evry bz wit their assignment studio n even project.....its hard 2 chat wit them now......haha....does tis mean we already hav some "GAP" between us.....since i'm so far from them.....is tat d actual n correct word 4 me 2 use? hmmm....wonder~~~~

its ok then....i better study korean language now.....Don think so much n enjoy ya....hehe.....