Me me me & me....

Tuesday, 10 November 2009

I'm glad that....

1. I can eat and sleep well.
   
2. I'm not alone in this world.
3. I enjoy my life.
   
4. You are here to share my problem and accompany me.
5. There are always my lovely family that awaits me to be back there at KL.

I hope that....

1. I'll be happy forever.
   
2. My life would be better.
3. I would go back to my home to stay with my loves one.
4. I would travel to places around the world.
5. I would spend without worrying much.

My target before Year End...

1. New environment.
2. New job.
3. New purse.
4. New handbag.
5. New shoe.
6. New clothes.
7. New look.
8. New style.
9. New...new...new...
   

Confuse....

Monday, 19 October 2009

9 months passed. What should I be doing right now? I suppose to have a better life right now. Doing whats right for me. Doing things that can change my path of way in the future. Having a great satisfaction on whats going on days by days.

But in reality, I just can't understand what am I doing right now? The feeling that I had now wasn't right at all. It doesn't "click" together with my mood. I'm CONFUSE. Should I get myself change or keep it stable for another year. Expecting what would I be in the near future really suffers a lot.

If I'm hardworking, does that means I will be successful in the future..?

It was a tough question right? Let see....Give me another chance. I'll try to change my life. Let see the result next year. I promise to do the best.

My Cheesecake!

Tuesday, 28 April 2009

I don really feel happy nowadays....wonder where my happiness gone....i really can't get any satisfaction on wats going on through my life now....no ups and down....therefore i would like to take my step to bake and make myself bz rather than thinking some nonsense things....i actually planned to baked a cake last few days but end up failed....end up going shopping during the weekend....buying nothg there....

Supposed i can enjoy my Oreo Cheesecake....always wonder how its taste like....wats the taste of the cheesecake that i bake for myself....mayb it was jst an ordinary cheesecake....hoping so much that i could one day...(mayb~~~) turn into an etrodinary cake....cake that every1 appriciate it...cake that every1 thinks that it was the best cake ever....

Wonder how can i change the "non-baked oreo cheesecake" to a special cake....will it be like that forever? can i try to change it..? Maybe i can put something on it.....decorate it? with strawberies? kiwi? cream? or mayb adding coffee into it? hmmm~~~~headache....

that wasn't included into the recipe....but how can i change/modify it to a cake that i really like? as some1's help? erm....mayb some prefer the original cake....but i jst wish it could be at least better that what every1 thought.....

i wan my parents to enjoy the cake that i bake as well....i wan them noe that the cake that i bake was the best cake ever....but how? i want no regrets at the end....

I'm jst to scared to think about it...too scared to face those problem...after all no one cares bout it thou...haiz.....silly me...

Do you believe in miracle or maybe weird stuff?

Monday, 20 April 2009

Do you believe in miracle or weird stuff?

Trust me. Its like I've been curse. These few days I personally trust that I might have a pair of "Magic Hand" that can neither change or cure things. My hand can actually make something new into an old things. Wahaha~~~

You gotta believe me. It happens in between a month period. This was what happen to me in the past few days:

1. I accidently spoil dear's computer. When he try to check his com, all his hard disk, mother board, n etc burned. The only things that can still be used was the RAM....scarry~~~~
2. Then in the office my boss bought a new printer for the office but the next day, i try to change some settings for the old printer so that we can share the printer together with my colleague. What happen was when we try to print something from the old printer,.....the printer doesn't work. Since then, the printer will print itself page by page wit only a few letter....fishy~~~
3. Then on thursday, i try cleaning my room but i end up spoiling something (the fan of my dear's new laptop). Its break at the corner of the fan...ish~~~~
   
4. The fourth thing was the washing machine. Last two days i went swimming with my dear. After i came back from the swim, of course there is a lot of things to be wash. So, i put in some clothes and also my towel to the washing machine. Then i try to work it out by turning it on. The water flow in but.....i notice that the water was flowing out to the disposal outlet. Therefore it will flow as long as the machine is on.....I just can't wash my clothes again....need to do it manually.....hmmm~~~~
5. Then the next thing was the new laptop that my dear just bought. I used it the last few days to watch dramas and also online at the same time. Plugging in the adapter to charge the battery and moving it from the room to the living room and back to the room. But last night, i notice something was wrong with the battery. Suddenly the battery was low and I try to charge it. What wonders me was, I already plug in the charger half hour ago but it still show 10% remaining. Erm....That was a new laptop and why is this happening to me????
6. And after that, on Monday i wen to work. Trying to save out some pic from my phone to burn it into a CD but suddenly i found out that my phone din work properly. I don know sms coming in and calls too. Then i try to check if i put it in a vibration mode or silent mode. It was in a normal mode. Aiks...then what happen to my phone? Why isn't it ringing. I try to call my phone using office phone but still...no ringing sound from it....haiz~~~
   

I think you guys have to believe my hand can actually cause miracle to my life....My magic hand.....OMG~~~why me? Why is this happening to me? Really impossible~~~

Source: http://www.geekologie.com/2007/07/12/soap-hands.jpg

D' drink

Friday, 20 February 2009

when we go shopping, someone likes to stop over for some drinks...no mater who you are hanging out with...your friends or maybe your family.....it might just a habit for us to sit down to take a rest or to chat with them......so, have you ever came to a situation where you bought something that you think you might not like it at the end of it....

there are so many choices when you step in a coffee shop....there are plenty of choices for you to order...coming from a various of flavour (from coffee, latte, mocha to fruit juice).....after a long and hard decision, i bought one of the drink...a chocolate milk....at first i really don know how would it taste like....once i've tried it, i love it....its not bad after all...

since then i would always like to order the same thing wherever i go to the shop....i think it would make me feel satisfied....but things goes wrong recently....someone actually told me that the drink doesn't seams that delicious...it looks so weird and it might be to sweet for me....but all this while i feel OK wit it.....weird and it might be to sweet for me? i like it to be sweet because i love chocolate.....

why? why? why? is it because its not good for my health? but now i'm still young....i still can accept the sweetness in it....no big deal right....

but why? after they commented my drink, i don't really feel good in me....i started to think a lot.....mayb someone would say that i like to think negetaively....but if someone commented on what you did, they actually care so much on you....they wan you to have a perfect life....

i started to think carefully.....

its started to give me a feeling that "should i try other drink or jst keep myself to enjoy this drink", "should i rethink and list down the pros and also the cons of the drink that will affect my health"....so have you guys tought of your drink before? nice? delicious? 'ngam ngam' ur taste?

there was a saying...

"an apple a day, keeps a doctor away"

but for me, my situation was....

"adding more sugar intake in me, keeps my life away"

i really don't know what should i do now...i don't feel easy when i think of it.....should i jst forget what other people commented on it? or i might jst add some water to the drink so that it won taste that sweet? or change another drink?

life was hard when you can't really make a decision or can take the challange when situation occur....

help....

what would you do if you had the same situation like me?

jealousy

Monday, 12 January 2009

would you easily get jealous wit other...not in the sense of your BF trying to go out with other gals or ur GF trying to go out with other boys....

its just a simple jealousy on other peoples life...how they live...how they work...their look, they life...and maybe i can say their richness...i have many friends...and i saw many things in their life...what they get, how they survive in this world...some they are rich n some they don't...

the rich ones they live gratefully and the don't, they succeed in their life too....

but why i feel different in me? i hope things will change in the near future...

Happy New Year

Friday, 2 January 2009

Its another new year....welcome to Year 2009.....i wish all my dreams come true....hahaha~~~

my new year wish...

1. Start work asap
2. save more money
3. go travel
4. buy many clothes
5. buy purse
6. to be healthy (also for my family n friends)
   
7. slim down (its impossible..hahaha~~~)
8. etc...

wakakaka..tats it 4 now..hahahaha

no one will understand my feeling right now!!!

Thursday, 13 November 2008

do you noe wat its feel like 2 do your thesis and your studio in the same time.....

previously i really don noe wat its feel like....i'll always say "no BIG deal wil it"

jst report writing and also some layout 2do.....

but now.......

i noe wat it feels......

i feel STRESSED....

i feel wanna CRY.....

i feel like GIVING UP.....

n i feel like THROWING MY LAPTOP AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (of coz i won do tat....if i do tat i'm finish...i need 2 retake my semester again)

i sit in front of d laptop d whole day but seams no progress at all....

i miss d time i was free....d time i'm in korea....when i can go here n there freely....visit places that i've never been b4.....exploring thgs tat i've never done b4......i really "MISS MY PAST"....

plz bring me bck....bring me 2 my past.....where i no longer need 2 do all my thesis n studio....plz plz plz.....

i really tired yet i can't sleep

Sunday, 2 November 2008

i jst don noe y i jst can't sleep even i'm that tired....mayb because i'm STRESSED? stressed wit all my EXAMS + REPORT + THESIS + LAYOUT....

how am i going to finish it all? huhuhu~~~

really feel wanna cry out...but i noe that i hav to be strong...only a months left n I'll b free...free from all the studies....i jst need to finish evrythg these few days n evrythg will b settled....

hope time flies fast...i jst wanna take a rest...i'm really tired of all these things...

now i wan myself to be recovered from all d illness (flu, fever, cought, headache, n etc)....i need more energy to continue....plz recharge my batteries....i still need to study for my exam....especially law...many thgs need to memorise....many thgs need to read....i hope i can cope wit it...

wish me luck.....

i wanna sleep i wanna sleep....but i can't...mayb i jst need to read my law awhile b4 i sleep.....

I NEED SOME REST!!!!!!!

i hate my life now

Tuesday, 28 October 2008

i'm in my study week now but i yet 2 finish all my assignment n also project....i don now y i'm slow in tis case...i really can't finish it...i don hav d mood to do it....

i noe i hav to finish it asap so that i can study for my law and also my transport planning....but i jst to lazy to do it...i really need some rest...

plz help me....

i'm sick, yet i still need to finish up my studio and my thesis...

Tuesday, 21 October 2008

last nite it was my worst day ever in this semester....knowing that i still hav loads of assignment, reports, studio and also thesis to do...i really can't stand my life now....

life really sucks now....i wen bck 2 my room after my studio around 4...hoping to go to the UTM clinic but it was closed!!! DAMN! its only 4pm...how come it close that early?

after that i hav to wen straight bck to my room to get a rest....it was around 7...i feel so cold...i try to get up 2 off d fan and then trying to sleep bck but i noe that i still hav a lot 2 do which i need to pass half of it to my thesis supervisor 2molo...i woke up but after 2 hours i can't even stand it n sleep around 9 until tis morning....

it was tough for me...really tough....feeling dizzy...waking up midnight a few times....at 12am, 1am, 3am, 5am....n at last around 7am...

and now....

i still need to do my thgs...finish it up....

hoping next week i can watch drama, play games, and also wen shopping....

really hope you were there for me...

thgs tat i do 2day

Tuesday, 8 July 2008

2day i really did a lot of thgs such as:-

1. 10.15am - find En. Rahim (my studio lecturer to get permission for my leave on this coming friday)
2. 11.00am - attend English for Career Search class for 2 hours
   
3. 1.00pm - find Dr. Foziah but she is not in her room
4. 1.15pm - rush to computer lab to type a letter for En. Rahim
5. 1.35pm - went to print my letter at meranti
6. 1.55pm - find rahim to sign my approval letter
7. 2.15pm - rush to Kolej 12's office to ask if there is any single room available
8. 2.45pm - rush to meranti to buy a bread (that my only lunch...i've no time to eat T_T)
9. 3.00pm - rush to Dewan Senat to attend a seminar on "Integrated River Basin Management: How to make it work?" by Prof. Helmut (been called by Dr.Rafee to attend the seminar so that i can get some information for my thesis)
   
10. 4.55pm - the seminar end....tot i can get information form the talk but its useless coz its all engineering and its nothg related to my thesis...T_T
11. 5.00pm - tot of going to Kolej 12 again to ask for the single room but d office already close
12. 5.05pm - wen to fetch one of my junior (Rose) coz i adi promise her to help her to move her com from Tmn University
13. 5.45pm - reach room....take a good rest and play games
14. 6.45pm - too hungry, so i wen downstairs to get a milo drink from the fridge and then eat a piece of bread (don't worry tats not my dinner)
15. 7.30pm - wen out for dinner....
16. 8.00pm - accompany my dear to cut his hair
17. 8.20pm - reach room again....n try to blog.....

tats wat i did d whole day....now kinda tiring but i noe i still hav to do my studio n also my thesis....i think i might take a rest b4 i bath n do my thgs....nite...

HELP!

blogging

Wednesday, 25 June 2008

at last.....after a hundred years.....i start to blog....haha....kidding...

i jst feel a bit boring here...erm not exactly "a bit"....i can say i'm truly bored wit my life now...although i'm happy tat i can b wit my family...holiday is my only chance to stay here wit them enjoying time watching tv, eating, n etc....but adi a month and a half staying at home.....and i did nothg besides focusing only on my thesis...or mayb i can say i also watch tv until 2am in d morning...


friends were all working...having and enjoying their own life....i think its my time to change....life was so much different after i came bck from Korea...Malaysia wasn't d same as b4....friends wasn't d same anymore....evrythg change except my family....

i notice how important my family is...they care bout me....giving me wat other ppl doesn't giv....i'm happy to hav a family like them...they were so perfect....

"time 2 change gal...." these few words were repeated again again and again in my mind for several time each day....i noe i hav 2 change...prepare myself b4 i go bck 2 uni.....i noe evrythg was different by then....

i can do it when i'm there in korea....so now...i'm in my own country...it shouldn't b a problem 2 me right....*i guess so*....1 week or 2 i hav 2 face it myself....mayb u will noe my story then....

to be continued....

how important am i 2 u?

Wednesday, 7 May 2008

do u appreciate me as a friend?
do u notice me all d while?
do u thank me 4 wat i've done?
do u noe our friendship will last even if u leave?
do u noe y i help u?
do u noe tat i need u beside me so badly?
do u noe how hurt am i?

so....

how important am i 2 u?

sad story always makes me cry!!!

Tuesday, 22 April 2008

knowing him nearly 4 years....seeing him so tough....teaching us d right thgs to do....guiding me the right way...give comment....

now i notice his heart is bleeding from inside....giving him no chance.....

here i would like 2 send my condolence to my university's mentor, lecturer En. Rahim.....

his wife jst passed away tis morning because of diabetics...leaving him before he retire...giving him no chance to take care of her.....

life is so unpredictable.....i'm so sorry for you....take good care of your health.....be strong...hope to see you around soon....

my lesson learned

Saturday, 12 April 2008

i've learned many new thgs 2day...

1. learn how 2 erase
   
2. learn 2 accept new thgs
3. learn not to think to much
4. learn to be thankful
5. learn to smile
6. learn to be patient

thats good right....i've grown a lot...thanks....

ITS 2am in d MORNING!!!!

Wednesday, 12 March 2008

its 2am in d morning...i can't believe tat i still need 2 study 4 my quizzes 4 2molo's community planning subject...poor me...i jst finish editing my resume...i hav quiz 2molo....oops i mean later around 11am then i need 2 rush 2 d DSI hall in UTM 4 d career fair...

graduate in Nov 2008....

need 2 find JOB!!!!!

headache headache...where 2 work? who wanna hire me? tell me!!!!

okla no more pesong....get 2 work...read 4 d quiz....

wow 10 quiz in 15 min...die....covers 4 chapter....WOW!!!

feel satisfied....

Friday, 11 January 2008

huhuhu....i'm so happy 2nite...at last after a year, i get d chance 2 eat and even chat happily wit my friends...i wen 2 eat steamboat 2day....so good,.....we eat n eat n eat n eat,......so full n happy....we chat n chat n chat...talk non stop...chat non stop...wow....eating n going out wit them really makes me feel so comfortable....having them around makes me happy everyday...i'm so glad 2 hav them here....

tell me....how can i survive without them next sem after they grad? how how how? i hope time pass slowly now...i really d time can stop right now....i noe i can't b so selfish...at last i still need 2 let them go...seeing them grad...seeing leaving me here in this uni....NIGHTMARE....haih...wat can i do....

lyn..i think u need 2 get used 2 it k...we still can meet in d future right....we can keep contact right...going along wit junior not tat bad right...at least they chat wit u....

haih haih haih.....

my laziness

Saturday, 24 November 2007

feel so lazy these days...really don feel like doing my assignment...summore we need 2 find our own tittle....actually i prefer lec giv us d tittle...so tat i won suffer tat much..kaka...haih...

assignment!!!!

ARGH!!!

plz fly me bck 2 msia now

Monday, 5 November 2007

i don noe y....now my heart is in malaysia...thinking of

1. how i pack my thgs bck?
2. wat should i buy bck?
3. my family, my friends, n my uni

counting d days bck 2 my home sweet home....make me lazy day by day....i even skip my 1st korean class tat day....haih...don feel like studying.....don feel like going anywhere...don feel like doing my assignment....don feel like doing my homework....

help me....wat should i do now?

i am such a lazy gal...i think nothg can draw my attention now...i will think...think...think...of msia...my home....

helpppppppp!!!!!!

fly me bck.....